I don’t even know why I am writing this but maybe because I just want to pour out my heart and relive myself of the heavy burden that I am carrying. I am very ashamed of what I am about to reveal. I do not know how I got myself involved in all of this shameful act and I need your help.
I am 29 years old. I have been in a casual relationship with someone for about three years. What I mean by causal is that, this guy told me he was engaged with someone but the lady is in Australia doing a program. they both agreed to have casual relationship since it’s is a long distance relationship.
Initially I thought it was a joke but they got married last year and this lady still went back to Australia cos of her job. The plan is for him to join her sometime this year or so. So instead of me to leave this boy alone, I found myself falling more and more in love with him cos the wife is not in the picture cos of the distance.
I even suspect the wife is aware of me but she does not even bother cos sometimes when she’s talking to him on the phone, I am sure she must have heard my voice at the background and she asks, is she the one, and he will answer yes…this is my dilemma.
I told myself several times that I need to end this but this guy is good to me, we are very good friend and I love him very much. I begged him to choose me instead of the wife but he says I will never understand…that both of them are destined to be together as soulmates.
Well, my problems got bigger seven months ago…